Today’s post is on lessons. Lessons are learned most every day in some form or another. The big lessons stick with us all our lives while the everyday small lessons somehow get swept under the rug. Each new day can serve up many varieties of lessons ranging from the sublime to the painful. I personally get some hard hits but try to roll with them when possible.
I am learning a new language. I began years ago just learning basic things and then let it slide. I have found a wonderful program called ILang, which makes it like a game to learn and I am progressing much faster and easier now, It has flash cards and memory games (ok, on a good day memory is fleeting), plus games where the words are spoken and you pick the answers. So far so good. I am learning tagalog, the language of the Philippines. You see, three of my granddaughters live there with their mother, They know english too so it makes it nice to be able to converse with them. I got lazy but now I am loving this way to learn something new. The app was free too! I am trying to keep this brain active.
I have also been learning all I can about gardening with non GMO seeds. I will be starting my seeds next week indoors and I cannot wait to get gardening again. My garden last year was so enjoyable to me and gave me a focus while I was laid up after my surgery. It is so satisfying to me to get my hands dirty in the soil, planting nutritious foods to enjoy over the long winter months. This is going to be a big garden this year so I am excited.
I am also learning the art of canning my foods. It is wonderful to find that something I thought was difficult,is actually quite enjoyable too. I was going to learn a few years ago but after reading the instructions, I began to rethink it. The instructions look intimidating. I never thought I would do it. However, after purchasing my pressure canner and getting a quick lesson in howto can, I am finding this to be enjoyable and economical too. For example, I bought a large turkey in November. I cooked it last Friday. There are only two of us here so what did I do with the rest? I canned it. I have raw packed chicken too. It is so simple. Who knew? I mean, when meat is on sale or if you get a bunch of some type, you can process it in canning and store it on your shelf instead of your freezer! Another lesson for me.
Sadly, another lesson in my life is about addiction. As I have stated previously, my husband has a problem with alcohol. He has promised numerous/times to stop only to begin again once his body recovers from his most recent binge drinking. He cannot have many more detox’s in him. It is most painful to watch someone you love kill themselves slowly over time and know you cannot stop it. I am in a good place now. Peaceful. Did I move out again? No. I just found that by praying for peace, it does come. I also found the blog I mentioned previously, The Immortal Alcoholic, and it has given me insight into how to maintain a peaceful life living in the chaotic world of alcoholism. It is amazing to see that you are not alone, kind of like those of us with autoimmune disorders feel when we find others to share our experiences with and get feedback. Who knew?
I think a lesson I have been learning for some time is finally coming into focus as well. I am learning to accept my limitations for what they are and to live with what I have been given. It also brings me peace to know this. I have been bucking the system for so long now, because I did not want to admit I am unable to do many things I think I can do in my mind. Acceptance is great because now I can work fully with what I DO have not what I wish I still had. This lesson was the hard one. How do you do it? I am not sure I know how it happened in my case. Patience is NOT my superpower. I believe that once I realized that the blessings are still there, just a bit different, is when the peace began falling around me. Funny that. I guess I was so busy concentrating on the thing I could no longer do, that I did not realize there are so many things I CAN still do. I still mourn the loss of the those things from before lupus. However, I choose to think more of the here and now. It really is freeing.
That’ls it for now. I hope you all are pain free and looking forward to spring. I am… I have big plans!